The Beautiful Mess of Alignment.

Everything was going great.

I was meditating, going to yoga regularly, writing in my journal (or whatever you call it)  and just manifesting the positive thoughts that came as a natural side effect of doing all of those things.

And while nothing was exactly perfect, because I don’t believe there’s such a state in which to live, it felt like I was getting what I wished for and what I deserved.

The Universe has a pretty messed up, but fantastic sense of humour about this kind of thing, and just to see if you really ‘get it’, it will throw a stick directly in the middle of your path. Will you glide effortlessly around it? Or will you dive directly into it?

Of course, I not only tripped over the damn stick I took a few tumbles and grazed my knees in the process.

I wanted to stay there, on the ground in that stuck place I knew so well in my previous life, I really wanted to. Feeling not only sorry for myself, but wallowing in self-pity was a state of mind that used to come so effortlessly to me. One small decision in a matter of 24 hours, and here I was feeling the un-doing of all of the good work I had put in over the last 6 months.

Why do we do that to ourselves? Berate our most fragile parts when they need encouragement the most.

Well, as it turns out, I didn’t stay very long. I got up and went to yoga and practiced a radical amount of self-care that I didn’t think I had the heart to. And what followed, was a shaky but steady journey back into the centre of things, back into the not-so-linear process of alignment and back to what I had started.

Sometimes I feel like it’s such a mess, that I’m a big mess and that I don’t know what is that I’m doing. And while it’s scary as hell to think that we can be just one decision away from veering off of the path, it’s also so beautiful to know that it’s never a long journey to get back on to it.



Why I Dance (And The Importance Of Trying)

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A bunch of rude gals from the beautiful Erika Goldsmiths ‘Rude Girl Course’ at YCV studios.

It’s 5:47 and I’m beginning to think of excuses and reasons that seem plausible to text the organiser of this dance performance group.

‘ I’m not feeling well’

‘I have some family issues’

And the most cliche of cliche.

‘Something came up’ Read more ›

Why This Blog No Longer Serves Me.

There are a few things one does when coming into the line of fire. You either-

        a)   Fire back

       b)   Render yourself defenceless and curl up into foetal position

or   c)   You take the hit and prepare for what comes next

I’ve taken a hit lately which involves the subject of this blog, and the content of my character as a result of what I choose to write about. My first instinct was to put this blog on private and vow never to show it to someone I newly meet ever again. Read more ›

Notes To Myself.


Taken by Guido Melo for Melko Boutique and scribbled on by me. 

When there is nothing profound to say.

Other than I need to love myself.

To stop seeking comfort in the warm outter layers, to first wrap my heart carefully.

I never grasped what it meant

Never knew how much I needed it.

Until I stopped reaching and found my hand could fit so perfectly in the other.

How can I provide, how can I give when there is no source to drink from within?

Suddenly my selfishness doesn’t seem so selfish.

Suddenly, it makes sense.

In order to get love, I have to be love

Be all the things I am, instead of seeing what I’m not.

Perhaps the most profound thing I can say is that no, I don’t yet love me.

But I’m trying and I will.

Salma Hayek Pinault- Beyond The Beauty Part 1


Photographed by Diego Uchitel

Initially, I had drafted a post about Mr Kanye West, and you might have noticed I have made a bit of habit throughout my blog writing history, of dropping his name. A sort of media spectacle in some regards, I personally have come to find that his agenda is largely misunderstood. Hidden in the eccentric layers of his own ego, his actual message and I’m not afraid to say genius, sadly has gotten lost in the noise. So I sat down and pulled quotes from his recent interview with Charlamagne The God, to show that his thoughts actually had some kind of point to them. But then something else caught my attention, and it seemed carless as a woman to not write about it and not draw attention to this intelligent and powerful person. No, she doesn’t rap and she doesn’t make overpriced sought-after sneakers, but she’s incredibly intelligent and I admire so many things about this woman, including the persistence of her fearless spirit in an industry that has tried to keep it contained.

Today I’m going to talk about actress Salma Hayek Pinault, and use her recent interview with Oprah Winfrey, as a guide to why we should focus more attention on her incredible message. Read more ›

‘A real man just can’t deny..’

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The one and only Alicia Keys back in the days of lace-up fly denim. (via this website)

Alicia Keys wrote a song about it, Drake has rapped about it..

A woman’s worth, is anything but a simple concept. Read more ›


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I started writing this post with a clear intention in mind, to justify why being single is a good thing for me at this point in time. After I finished writing, for some reason I couldn’t press post, and as it turns out (and as it sometimes does), I didn’t entirely and wholeheartedly believe what I had written.

This is how my post started.. Read more ›

People & Places- Alma Mexicana

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A musician and beautiful singer performing at AM

Nothing makes me happier then when someone brings the love they have for their culture and connects it to a business. That’s exactly what Carla Esquivel did when she created her boutique Alma Mexicana which translates to Mexican Soul. When I went along to her Paddington store last Friday for a special Frida Kahlo night, it didn’t take long to see just how much heart Carla had injected into her business. For starters each piece is designed and made by Native Mexicans so you’re not only getting something authentic but you’re also supporting a local initiative. Read more ›