The Beautiful Mess of Alignment.

Everything was going great.

I was meditating, going to yoga regularly, writing in my journal (or whatever you call it)  and just manifesting the positive thoughts that came as a natural side effect of doing all of those things.

And while nothing was exactly perfect, because I don’t believe there’s such a state in which to live, it felt like I was getting what I wished for and what I deserved.

The Universe has a pretty messed up, but fantastic sense of humour about this kind of thing, and just to see if you really ‘get it’, it will throw a stick directly in the middle of your path. Will you glide effortlessly around it? Or will you dive directly into it?

Of course, I not only tripped over the damn stick I took a few tumbles and grazed my knees in the process.

I wanted to stay there, on the ground in that stuck place I knew so well in my previous life, I really wanted to. Feeling not only sorry for myself, but wallowing in self-pity was a state of mind that used to come so effortlessly to me. One small decision in a matter of 24 hours, and here I was feeling the un-doing of all of the good work I had put in over the last 6 months.

Why do we do that to ourselves? Berate our most fragile parts when they need encouragement the most.

Well, as it turns out, I didn’t stay very long. I got up and went to yoga and practiced a radical amount of self-care that I didn’t think I had the heart to. And what followed, was a shaky but steady journey back into the centre of things, back into the not-so-linear process of alignment and back to what I had started.

Sometimes I feel like it’s such a mess, that I’m a big mess and that I don’t know what is that I’m doing. And while it’s scary as hell to think that we can be just one decision away from veering off of the path, it’s also so beautiful to know that it’s never a long journey to get back on it.

 

 

Her Mati- Lindsey.

 

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The more women I meet, the more impressed I am by this unique sense of self and sense of empowerment that they shine outwardly, without even being in the spotlight or making a fuss. I’m talking about just regular females who might not have the followers, but yet have travelled to so many amazing places and have wisdom to impart that so many younger girls would find inspirational. It seems like such a shame that I should have these encounters and not share them in some way, so this series hopes to make a big fuss about these incredible mujers, so that they can have a space to be celebrated. Read more ›

Why This Blog No Longer Serves Me.

There are a few things one does when coming into the line of fire. You either-

        a)   Fire back

       b)   Render yourself defenceless and curl up into foetal position

or   c)   You take the hit and prepare for what comes next

I’ve taken a hit lately which involves the subject of this blog, and the content of my character as a result of what I choose to write about. My first instinct was to put this blog on private and vow never to show it to someone I newly meet ever again. Read more ›

2017- A Perfectly Imperfect Year.

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Christmas Eve, 2017-

‘Some people are like that. They need to make the same mistake 10 times to learn a lesson. Other people only need to do it once. Everyone is different.’

That one golden nugget from my sister-in-laws mouth, was all the confirmation that I needed to realise I was one of those destructive lesson-learning types of people. Read more ›

When It’s Not Them, It’s You.

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Mural by Millo

I wrote a few blog posts about love-related things, and no sooner had I posted them I found myself quickly reverting them to a draft. Why you may ask? It’s because these posts in all of their ‘profoundness’, seemed to pit everyone else as the source of the problem and it didn’t address the person that really needed a few wise words directed at them. Read more ›

When We Are Too Busy To Be Depressed

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Today is National Suicide Prevention Day, and it’s a day that’s important for a lot of reasons. The most important, I believe, is to acknowledge that there may be someone in your life who is struggling silently, and desperately wanting to be asked ‘Are You Ok’? ‘Like, really?’ Read more ›

My Weight Should Not Be Your Concern

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‘Look at your legs’

‘Just don’t lose anymore weight, ok?’

I could hear the concern in her voice as she said it, and as a regular customer at the cafe I work at, I know she really meant no harm.

But her words stuck with me, as well as everyone else’s who had commented that I looked thinner recently.

Truthfully, it was not an intentional weight loss, as had been my first serious diet at 20 that spiralled into a seven year eating disorder.

 Back then, I had tried to lose unnecessary weight, and restricted myself of food so much that I developed a binge eating disorder.

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My Mati- Why It’s OK Not To Be OK

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Arachova, Greece DEC 2016.

In today’s online world, it seems that in order to measure ‘success’ it has to be visible to others. Whether it’s a certain amount of followers, a fitness goal or maybe an overseas move, if it isn’t shared openly, somehow it’s deemed less valid. Every now and then I like to go off the grid whereby I either deactivate my Facebook for a little while, or I stop looking at Instagram every few minutes.Maybe I could stand to use social media differently, but I can’t help but feel bombarded by the hundreds of different messages I receive everyday via my news feed. It often leaves the window to greener pastures wide open, and one can’t help but compare their life choices to the one’s made in the images they see. Read more ›

Can’t We All Just Get Along?

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Drawn by my very own gal-pal Vanshika Sinh for The One Woman Project. If you wish to reproduce this amazing work of art, please don’t be a dick and REFERENCE her.

Energy is an interesting thing when you’re a particularly sensitive person like myself. You can feel it instantly, especially when someone introduces themselves with a smile, but you know it’s not what they really mean. Read more ›

When The Nice Guy Wins

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There is a misconception going around, that nice guys always finish last. These are the kind of guys that carefully take into consideration how a girl feels, usually being the friend first before they show any kind of interest.

And it’s a tricky place to be in, because usually they are the sensitive type, not likely to puff out their chest and think with their penis. So naturally, as women, we tend to look past them and stick to what we know, focusing our attention on the ones that deserve it least. Read more ›