The Silent Yes.

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-Rupi Kaur

I should preface this post by saying *warning this posts contains explicit content that some readers may find offensive* because it actually does. But more than that, I know there might be family friends, friends or potentially ex-boyfriends reading, and that my honesty will make them feel uncomfortable and for that I can only warn them, but I can’t apologise. Saying sorry implies that I’ve done something wrong, and I know being truthful for the sake of something greater, is never a wrong doing. Read more ›

2017- A Perfectly Imperfect Year.

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Christmas Eve, 2017-

‘Some people are like that. They need to make the same mistake 10 times to learn a lesson. Other people only need to do it once. Everyone is different.’

That one golden nugget from my sister-in-laws mouth, was all the confirmation that I needed to realise I was one of those destructive lesson-learning types of people. Read more ›

When It’s Not Them, It’s You.

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Mural by Millo

I wrote a few blog posts about love-related things, and no sooner had I posted them I found myself quickly reverting them to a draft. Why you may ask? It’s because these posts in all of their ‘profoundness’, seemed to pit everyone else as the source of the problem and it didn’t address the person that really needed a few wise words directed at them. Read more ›

Growing Pains.

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No references of the eye patch..but you get the idea.

When you go to school, the first social construct you’re made aware of is the art of fitting in. For six-year-old Maria that was made particularly hard thanks to my optometrist, who made me wear an eye patch over my one lazy eye (+ round metal glasses). I could have turned it into a cool pirate-related thing and got the six-year-old boys onside, but unfortunately the eye patch was made entirely out of tissues and sticky tape, thanks to my thrifty Mum. I didn’t get made fun of but I felt very different, and it kick-started the whole journey of self-awareness that we all have to begin sooner or later. Read more ›

Swim Good.

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Photo of me mid cry for your own personal reference.

For a  really really long time now (each of my family members will attest to this), I have talked about moving away. Brisbane as much as I appreciate it’s laid-back vibe and overall amazing weather, had outgrown me a bit and it became time to start looking for a pair of big girl pants to change in to.

So the first day I landed I Melbourne, it surprised me that I burst into tears on three separate occasions. The first instance was when I lost the piece of paper that contained my wifi password on it, and that I was specifically told by reception not to lose as they wouldn’t issue another one. Somehow between reception and one floor above that, I lost that God damn piece of paper. And so I did what any mature 27-year-old would do, and proceeded to go to my room and cry. Read more ›

When We Are Too Busy To Be Depressed

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A still from the movie ‘The Secret Life of Walter Mitty’ via Tumblr

Today is National Suicide Prevention Day, and it’s a day that’s important for a lot of reasons. The most important, I believe, is to acknowledge that there may be someone in your life who is struggling silently, and desperately wanting to be asked ‘Are You Ok’? ‘Like, really?’ Read more ›

Why?

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A picture of my muse because she was flawed and still dared to paint it.

 

Why am I so damn scared of change?

It’s all I have spoken about for the past couple of years, and yet much to my own immense dissatisfaction, I have become one of those ‘all talk, no action’ kind of gals. And while I wallow in this inability to move forward, I watch people around me switch gears and adjust like it ain’t no thang. Well, I know it’s harder than what it looks, but the fact remains that most people realise that it’s not so hard to just try. Read more ›

Real Recognises Real: Sully (Part 1)

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Everyone that I spoken to about Sully, has come to regard her as ‘my gypsy friend that travels the world and lives a pretty sweet life.’ Well I’m here to tell you..that it’s all very real, and decided that it was time that more people knew about the amazing places, people and things she has experienced over the past few years. Of course there is more to the story than just her perpetual wanderlusting, and it’s these kinds of details I want to get into. Because what I love about RRR, is that its about appreciating that we all have the ability to inspire, even if the person doing the inspiring isn’t famous on social media. So brace yourself, this girl has done some amazing things.  Read more ›

Words with- ‘C’

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The All Seeing Eye- Taken and badly drawn be me.

I always find it interesting, when I see myself in younger girls. When they tell me their fears, their concerns and their hangups, I see that I was and in some ways still am the same as they are. The only thing that’s changed as I’ve gotten older, is this great thing called perspective. It allows me to see how silly it was when I was 22, that I was so concerned with having my life all the way together.  Read more ›

My Weight Should Not Be Your Concern

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‘Look at your legs’

‘Just don’t lose anymore weight, ok?’

I could hear the concern in her voice as she said it, and as a regular customer at the cafe I work at, I know she really meant no harm.

But her words stuck with me, as well as everyone else’s who had commented that I looked thinner recently.

Truthfully, it was not an intentional weight loss, as had been my first serious diet at 20 that spiralled into a seven year eating disorder.

 Back then, I had tried to lose unnecessary weight, and restricted myself of food so much that I developed a binge eating disorder.

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